edmundorphine...爱门多芬...

心

2010-10-04T12:08:00.002+08:00

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛我们都无话可说
有过多少快乐就有多少痛都在揪着
当爱与不爱一样让人心痛不要松开我的手
故事走到最后也许还没最后
不要带走你的天空

黄威尔

Again....

2010-10-01T11:03:00.005+08:00

Things usually did not happened into the way we wish...

i hate this kind of feelings...

i want to do something but i cant...

i can sense that you already lost your confidence in it...

but i wish i can make you feel better...

i am still the same old me...the one that i used to be...

its hard to accept..i know...

we should change our perception about this...

we can get through this..although the pathway is not going to be easy...

but i believe that our faith can lead us through...

please...i am trying to give you more confidence in it...

i miss those moments....

"Love is patient. Love is kind.

It does not want what belongs to others.

It does not brag. It is not proud. It is not rude.

It does not look out for it's own interests.

It does not easily become angry.

It does not keep track of other people's wrongs.

Love is not happy with evil.

But it is full of joy when the truth is spoken.

It always protects. It always trusts. It always hopes. It never gives up"

Kaixin said this is from bible.

but it is so true.

面具

2010-09-28T10:55:00.005+08:00

最后一抹的微笑

在转身之后

我闭上眼哭了

仅存的一点点骄傲

华丽的外表终于丢掉

很彷徨很孤单是寂寞或

悲惨一个人该怎么办

像是刺猬般防范

伪装的勇敢

不轻易让你看穿

我以为可以很坦然

面对分开时不觉得伤感

然而将灯关上一片无

声黑暗心痛的大声呼喊

我想我没那么坚强每个女孩其实一样

渴望着爱情的好渴望被拥抱

却都害怕爱让人受伤

承认我没那么坚强

不过是一而再的逞强

小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还傻

刺猬的坚强全都是假象哭吧

像是刺猬般防范

伪装的勇敢

不轻易让你看穿

我以为可以很坦然

面对分开时不觉得伤感

然而将灯关上一片无

声黑暗心痛的大声呼喊

我想我没那么坚强每个女孩其实一样

渴望着爱情的好渴望被拥抱

却都害怕爱让人受伤

承认我没那么坚强

不过是一而再的逞强

小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还

傻刺猬的坚强全都是假象

我想我没那么坚强每个女孩其实一样

渴望着爱情的好渴望被拥抱

却都害怕爱让人受伤

承认我没那么坚强

不过是一而再的逞强

小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还傻

刺猬的坚强全都是假象哭吧

刺猬－温岚

绵绵细雨，乌云密布的天空，

心情特别忧郁。

昨晚听见了这首歌，

歌词恰恰到位，

其实不是只有女生渴望被爱，

男生有时候也渴望被爱，

伤害，也不是只有女生会害怕，

就算充满雄性荷尔蒙的人也会害怕。

只因，在感情上的伤害，

往往比在身体上的伤害更痛。

具体的伤害，眼睛看得到，

可以对症下药。

无形的伤害，没人会明白，

往往，我们都在假装坚强。

晚上，面具拿掉时，

你会不敢面对镜子里的自己。

但是，

我们还是要面对自己，

需要自己站起来。

时间可能就是我们的解药吧。

快点站起来吧！！我的朋友。

生日快乐。。。

2010-09-21T23:12:00.004+08:00

你的生日。。。二十一岁。。。
不能在你的身边，

对不起。

不能为你做些什么，

很难过。

不能为你倒数，

我的错。

只想告诉你说，

今后的生日，

我想陪你过。

今后的日子，

一起看日落。

今后的生活，

你不会寂寞，

你有我。

生日快乐

虽然有些幼稚。。。请你见谅吧。。。

陈康琳

星期六

2010-09-18T18:06:00.004+08:00

目无焦点看着窗外的树。。。

懒洋洋的躺在床上。。。

重复着同一首歌曲。。。

感觉很悠闲。。。

寂寞。。。孤单。。。

不是很多。。。但却到位。。。

开心。。。幸福。。。

也有。。。

只是人是贪心的。。。

得到了一点。。。就会想吞噬全部。。。

这一点。。。让我想到了日蚀。。。

美丽。。。但却是凄美。。。

只要会欣赏。。。那就是美。。。

就像你和我。。。

相互的感觉。。。

坚持。。。是一种信念。。。

守护。。。是一种承担。。。

相信。。。是可以的。。。

如有雷同，纯粹巧合。

2010-09-17T11:03:00.006+08:00

我喜欢你的眼看着我的眼

我喜歡妳的臉貼著我的臉

我喜歡妳的手牽著我的手

我喜歡妳的口吻著我的口

時間在改變妳不要改變

因為我很愛妳不想要妳放棄愛情

友情這段得來不易我愛妳

真的是很愛妳所以想就這樣繼續愛下去

時間在改變妳不要改變

因為我很愛妳不想要妳放棄愛情

友情這段得來不易我愛妳

真的是很愛妳所以想就這樣繼續愛下去

严爵 - 我喜欢,不,我爱

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2rGzdV-mlo4

我真的没听过这首歌。

之后，我才知道这首歌的存在。

不过真的很巧合。

歌词很熟悉，对不？

哈哈。

对，就是你。

一个信息就好了，

一个电话就够了。

我你他。。。

2010-09-15T02:58:00.004+08:00

这几个星期...做了许多我平时都不会干的事...

先别谈这...

和你一起的时间..总是过得很充实...

吃饭...看戏...逛街...都齐了...

最搞笑的...我们竟然可以了聊个不停...要不是天亮...都不要回家...

不过...真的很开心 ...聊有的没的...聊天南地北...

不只...买日常用品...去残障中心...

也是这样...你让我看见了...你的另一面...好像观音妈...哈哈...

不过...谢谢你...让我觉得我自己是幸福的...

看见那些小孩...

谢谢你...

遇见你...

让我心有了底...

09.09.10

峰回路转。。。

2010-07-21T01:06:00.002+08:00

一天。。。一星期。。。

足以让整个剧情峰回路转。。。

让你以前看到的事实。。。不再是现实。。。

让你想像到的画面。。。不再出现在你前面。。。

让你以为可能存在的。。。变得不实在。。。

变化实在太恐怖了。。。然你觉得你什么都是。。。

你永远掌握不了。。。

总觉得你可以控制的时候。。。事情往往就是超出你想想。。。

就像某某国家的电视剧。。。。

很无奈。。。

五彩缤纷。。。

2010-07-18T13:24:00.002+08:00

这几个月。。。过着五彩缤纷的生活。。。

每天都精彩无比。。。

几乎没有一天是闲着的。。。

每天的时间都让各式各样的活动充满了。。。

一般朋友。。。谈天说地。。。花天酒地。。。

时间过得很快。。。

心情也被他们弄得很好了。。。哈哈。。

很开心能够有他们在我的身边。。。

受人恩惠千年记。。。

你们的好意我会铭记于心的。。。

不过阿。。。现在是让我自己好好沉淀的时候了。。。

刘伟斌。。。加油哦。。。

早安...

2010-07-15T00:41:00.001+08:00

“我不知道快乐是什么，每当我早上醒来的时候，我就能听见你在我耳边低声说，早上好。那这就是一个很美的早上。但接下来的下午和晚上就很难过了。但我想到明天早上又能听见你的声音，我又能忍受不那么好的下午和晚上了。不要担心我，我很坚强很勇敢，我可以和我的记忆一起活下来，我所拥有的记忆，能拥有它们我已经很满足了。”

久违了...

2010-07-13T00:38:00.000+08:00

好像很就没有这种感觉了。。。
那个晚上。。。
突然间一股暖流。。。
涌上心头。。。
谢谢你。。
让我又重温了这种感觉。。。

六月二十号....

2010-06-21T00:28:00.001+08:00

原本的我....

没发生那件事情...

现在的我应该在你那里了...

还是那一句...

计划赶不上变化....

你他媽的。。。

2010-06-02T20:26:00.002+08:00

我向來都不會欣賞寂寞。。。

不會喜歡寂寞。。。

所以會做很多事情來填補我的寂寞。。。

以前的我。。。覺得時間太空就是寂寞。。。

現在的我。。。很忙。。。時間都沒有了。。。

但還是寂寞。。。。

落差那麼大。。。

是因為什麼呢？

我想是因為成長了吧。。。

新的環境。。。

新的工作。。。

要去適應。。。

很累。。。但還是很寂寞

依然討厭寂寞。。。

奇怪的夜晚..

2010-06-01T02:14:00.002+08:00

奇怪的夜晚。。。

突然間想起你每一次陪我過我的每一個每一次。。。

這一次你不再陪我過著一個很重要的第一次。。。

綿羊仔很想你。。。

啊扁很想你。。。

charcoal仔很想你。。。

sunny仔也很想你。。。

我也。。不懂要怎樣了。。。

奇怪的夜晚。。。

晚安。。。

釋懷了。。。

2010-05-23T03:33:00.002+08:00

以前總是比別人先一步知道你的消息。。。

現在卻要在別人口裡知道你的近況。。。

好不諷刺。。。

以前。。。

你都沒告訴我。。我是一個容易被人影響的人。。。

沒錯。。。或許我是。。。

但你又可曾想過。。。為什麼我會那樣呢？

影響我的人又是誰呢？

一個個都是我在乎的人。。。

所以我願意為他們改變我的想法。。。

希望能夠和他們更加的靠近。。。

沒想到。。。現在分開了。。。你說我是一個容易被影響的人。。。

哈。。。

很諷刺吧。。。

以前。。。是你說服我。。要我轉學換科的。。。

現在調回頭。。。你竟然說我是一個沒主見的人。。。

有想過嗎？

為你付出的一切。。。好像都是我一個人在眼的獨角戲。。。

在一起最後的兩年半。。。如果你真的不開心。。。

我也真的無言了。。。

把最好的都給你。。。

或許是吧。。。

或許我的最好你已經不想要。。

在給的在乎只會讓你更想逃。。。

不過。。今天聽到你的消息。。。

心情已經比之前的都平靜了。。。

釋懷了吧。。

心裡的疑問都沒想再去尋找答案。。。

反正找到的事實。。。也不會是我想要懂得。。。

也不會再讓我們回到從前了。。。

我懷念的。。。是以前的我們。。。已經不是現在的你了。。。

去吧。。。我們的世界都很大。。。

拿掉，除掉，刪掉的衣服物品；那不掉，除不掉，刪不掉的回憶。

2010-05-20T15:18:00.003+08:00

三年的累積。。。要拿掉，除掉，刪掉。

是要時間的。。

在一次翻閱了三年半一起的時間。。。

收拾了她的衣服。。東西。。。

要把他們都送回家。。。

好像很多回憶都是很美好的。。。

很開心的。。。

至於後面的。。。我也沒有去添加太多的負面情緒。。。

你的決定。。。你的選擇。。。我都會出尊重。。。

反正我就是那麼隨便的人。。。

開心就好。。。

人生短短幾十年。。。

如果不開心就無味了。。。

今後也要開心。。。

再見了三年半。。。

曾經熟悉。。。靠近的人。。。

旁邊的那一個。。。

從此。。。各走各的。。。你有你的天空。。。我有我的宇宙。。。

個不相干。。。

最痛的結局。。。

旧衣服...

2009-09-28T15:51:00.004+08:00

不明白为什么...
当你把我买了回家后...
以为一切没问题了...
很称身...
到头来却还是一样...
我还是会有让你觉得不称身的时候...
但是...
我不是你可以呼之则来...
挥之则去的...
你觉得想穿时就把我穿上身...
你觉得不要时就把我丢进衣橱里...

我不是人...不会有想法...感觉...
但如果我是人呢？
那你不是太残忍了吗？

哈哈...
以上是我替旧衣服们发出的心声...
:P

back to normal....

2009-07-23T16:55:00.002+08:00

things happened had happened...
you cant do a thing to change the fact...
we need to
face with the fact..
deal with the problems...
confront ourselves with our fault...
look for solutions for the problems...
sometimes, we might..
lost the courage to face with it..
lack of ability to deal with the problems..
low level of self awareness to acknowledge our fault..
no idea for any solutions...
but some how or rather..we need to stand up..
maybe the atmosphere is akward..
our efforts isnt doing any good..
the feeling isnt the same as the good old time..
but yeah..this is life..
Mr. thesis...when can you get out from my life....
give me back my normal life...

日落..

2009-07-21T19:33:00.000+08:00

一样的街道。。。
一样的时间。。。
一样的日落。。。
却有着。。。
截然不同的心情。。。

self....

2009-07-08T11:10:00.003+08:00

好久没好好的欣赏早上的风景了。。。
早上的空气好像特别好。。。
特别的清新。。。
或许刚起床吧。。。不像中午。。。
太阳公公含蓄的躲在云里。。。
卖雪糕的uncle。。。
摇着他的铃啷。。。
回忆跳针。。。
回到童年的我。。。
早上上课时。。。
老师总会说。。。“早起的鸟儿有虫吃”
或许是考试吧。。。
让我好想停下来。。。
好好的欣赏身边的事与物。。。
反省自己。。。
觉得自己好像很粘。。。
觉得自己没有方向。。。
觉得自己没有前途。。。
ideal self和actual self差得太远了。。。
要调整。。。要接受。。。要放开。。。
self actualization。。。要达到。。。
我想我不是一个introvert的人吧。。。
我不会欣赏寂寞。。。甚至有时候会害怕。。。
但我要学会。。。学会去品尝它。。。
因为寂寞是我们自我了解的好时机。。。
好喜欢早上哦。。。^^

走吧！别再害人了！

2009-07-01T12:41:00.001+08:00

离开吧。。。别再留下来害人害己了。。。
你从来不会带给别人些什么。。。
别人也不会对你有什么期待。。。
你只会带给别人麻烦和问题。。。
凡事都只会为自己着想。。。
你的世界只有你。。。其他的人都只是你的陪衬品。。。
别人的问题不是问题。。。
只有你的问题才是问题。。。
你说的都是道理。。。
其他人说的是歪理。。。
够了。。。不要再对你慈祥了。。。
你走吧。。。我不会对你有所怀念的。。。

DePuy

2009-06-14T15:11:00.003+08:00

An J & J company...
recently, i worked in an autonomy event...with mic...
about the detail, you can visit mic's blog to read about that..
here by, show u all some amazing pic...
you know...for those people, our bone just like a piece of wood...
they cut it...they shave it...they wipe it...they drill it...and sometime, they HAMMER it!!
i feel so pain when i witness the live surgery...

灰色地带...

2009-06-10T19:09:00.002+08:00

相信每个人都会有面对这个问题的时候吧。。。
做或不做。。。
说或不说。。。
每个人都有他们自己的一把尺。。。
自己的标准。。。
每个人都有他们的自由。。。
我们是不是要尊重呢？
还是我们应该要以大局为重呢？
做了把自己会后悔。。。
不作把自己会忏悔。。。
那个灰色地带。。。
不明显但又存在。。。
好自为之。。。

bad luck...

2009-05-31T12:03:00.003+08:00

sometimes people said...bad thing wont happen in only one...
i think this might some some true in it la..haha...
the day before yesterday...which is friday...
i send veen for shooting in KL....
then after i dropped her....i know that i need to look for petrol station to fill up my tank..
as it was going to empty d...
but somehow...i was stuck in the jam...and i scared that my petrol will empty even faster if i keep jam here...thus...i saw a junction and i turned in to it...coz i think it should be easier to look for petrol station in smaller housing area...
it was a malay kampung....i keep going deeper and deeper...finally...after like 5 Km i saw a petrol station...
P.S. huh...luckily i found a petrol station here...then i can slowly find my way out of this malay kampung...
once i parked my car beside the bump...i try to look for my wallet.....
and i realized...it was with veen........WTF...............
which means....i got no money to fill up the petrol!!!
i were so panic at that moment...
luckily i remembered that i passed by a LRT station just now...
so i call...my dude....alex teng...and tell him that my condition and my location...
fortunately...he was able to come and help me...
thankx to him....
then...i thought my bad luck will be over la...
mana tahu...
yesterday...when i wanted to drive my car that time...
i saw a layer of water on the back wind screen...
i were thinking...how come got water on my window one?as no raining also...
then i walked to my car and open the door...
"boom!!"...my back windscreen pecah!!!
OMG....><...really speechless....

fate...

2009-05-18T09:46:00.002+08:00

she was one of the women i love in this world...
i don't understand...why must be her to face with all this?
don't she deserve a better life?
she experienced a failure in her marriage 15 years ago...
because of her partner had an affair behind her...
after that, she had another relationship with a men...
but this time...she was the third party...and the man who basically is not a good man....
this relationship ended after some times due to several reasons...
and now...she is in a relationship with another man...
this time...the man treat her nice...and gentle...
and she is so happy to be with this man...
but some how...he is married and with 1 child...and always quarrel with his wife...
i don't even know how to explain why all these occur...
i think...there might be some kind of fate that she could not avoid...
but why her....
i understand that being a 3rd party in a relationship will not feel good and comfortable...
and some times even feel pressure and guilty...
but she did not do anything wrong...
at least she did not seduce and provoke a start of the relationship...
it was the man who confessed to her...
and she just wanted to grab something in her life so that she can has something everyone have...
love...
no matter what...i will still stand behind this woman...
and i will protect her from getting hurt with my every energy...
bless her...

new sem started!!!

2009-05-15T21:19:00.003+08:00

feel stressed when the 1st week of the new sem...
thesis is coming...haven't prepare for anything...
haven't complete my second year subjects....
group with some anonymous is group project...quite scare lo...
this semester is a short semester...
thus, the mid term will be in the corner soon...
everything come with a shoot...stress gila...
+ the weather is so d*rm hot....
but ofcoz..there are good things...
1.Man utd need 1 more point to retain EPL.
2.i changed a new car.
3.anything good that i forgot to mentioned here...
hehe...anyway...wish myself a good luck to this new sem...

压力。。。

2009-05-04T18:34:00.002+08:00

对不起。。。
让你承受了这么大的压力。。。
从来没有想过。。。
我们的相处方式会带给你这么大的压力。。。
我没有心让你失去你向往的自由。。。
但我却一时之间改不了我的毛病。。。
对不起。。。
你这样对我说。。。
我的心好痛。。。
一的人的房间。。。好冷。。。
泪洒在那里。。。
心也碎在那里。。。
我会反省的。。。

finally...

2009-04-25T01:25:00.000+08:00

finally finished my exams...
finally finished mo work...
finally going to have a trip with friends to fraser hill...
finally my pocket out of money...
finally...
holidays are goin to end soon...
haih...
better enjoy the holidays gao gao...
if not next semester...thesis is about to start...
but now...i just want to enjoy the trip to fraser!!hehe...^^

curse you....

2009-04-21T21:06:00.002+08:00

i feel bad when every1 had finished their exams but i don't.
i feel jealous for those people finished their exams and can go for movie before i finish my exam...
we shall wait and see...
mountain and water will meet one day...
hehe...tmr is my last paper...
i am going to be free on tmr after 2pm...but i will empathize on those who have not finish their exams la...haha...
all the best for everyone!!
^^...
wish that holidays can come as soon as possible...
and looking forward for fraser hill's trip...
hope that everyone will enjoy in the trip...hurray!!
gung ho gung ho...need to go back to study d...hoho!!

复杂。。。

2009-04-15T16:50:00.003+08:00

最近发生了一些事情。。。
让我的心情很复杂。。。
很不稳定。。。
只要有一点事情发生。。。
我就会很害怕。。。很没有安全感。。。
但我的以为不是事实。。。我就会有一股莫名的担心。。。
担心不知道你在那里了。。。
看见一些事情。。。不知道到底怎么了。。。
我知道是那几个字是没问题的。。。
但我却总是不能够把那个不顺畅从我的心里拿出来。。。
当这个加上那个的时候。。。
心理的隔膜就越来越明显。。。
明天要期末考。。。
还是专心读书吧。。。
要不就两头不到岸了。。。
祝就来考试的朋友们。。。考试顺利。。

安好就好。。。

2009-03-10T21:06:00.002+08:00

好久没有来我的部落格坐坐了...
最近的生活好忙碌哦...之前是期中考试...现在是作业了。。。
好多的作业要交了...而我却好好像没有心情要做功课呢。。。
最近的生活...风平浪静...舒舒服服...
也不知道要写什么好。。。
没关系啦。。。
就这样啦。。。
希望大家安好就好。。。

怪怪的心情。。。

2009-02-20T23:44:00.003+08:00

明早八点考试。。。
现在的我。。。好像没有心情要读书了。。。
糟糕了。。。
听着虫鸣声。。。他们好逍遥。。。不用考试。。。
我呢？到底在干嘛。。。竟然还在这写部落格。。。
哈。。。
表弟的女友出国了。。。他们在一起一个星期了。。。
然后她就出国读书去了。。。
表弟好难过。。。
开始了一个星期。。。试想感情基础应该不是很强。。。应该不会很难过才对啊。。。
而且我老表示很开朗的人。。。
不过啊。。。他真的伤心了。。。
女的一走就可能两年。。。
说长不长。。。但也不短。。。
真不懂他们应该开始还是不应该开始。。。
有些事情。。。发生了。。。太快了。。。你来不及察觉。。。
发生了。。。甚至你一辈子也可能不会懂。。。
一个决定。。。可以影响一辈子。。。
加油吧。。。
好了。。。疯够了。。。
要回去读书了。。。哈哈。。。

granny birthday!!

2009-02-03T15:17:00.003+08:00

yesterday was my granny birthday...
we had a dinner session and celebrate for her...
she was so happy...smile untill 见牙不见眼...
wish popo healty and happy always la....hehe^^

bIrthday BoY...huHu...

2009-02-03T14:56:00.004+08:00

thankx for my beloved friends...
thankx for the suprise....hehe...i love u all so much...
veen and u all gave me a really big suprise....thankx so much...
hau ran...walk from setapak to 1u....
jeff...help to organized it....
ivy...little girl....
ai li....sailing expert...
boon woei...a good pro singer...(really amazed...)
ben...sentimental singer as well...haha....
micheal...sick also come...(touched...feel like wanna cry)
sharon...always sleepy girl...hehe...
kevin...purposely drove from seremban to 1u then go back to seremban!!...
and the most special one...my dear..veen...muaxk!!
thankx so much for all of u....

病态...

2009-01-14T22:18:00.002+08:00

我们的社会生病了。。。
今天。。。我听见我朋友的妈妈和弟弟遇劫了。。。
还是在自家的门口。。。
那班匪真得很猖狂。。。
把母子俩人都伤得很严重的。。。
不明白。。。
抢就抢嘛。。。干嘛伤人呢？
你要过活难道人家的命就不是命吗？
有必要把人家弄得那样吗？
我们都明白。。。
通货膨胀的痛苦。。。没有钱的烦恼。。。
但你的命贵。。。难道人家的明就贱吗。。。
唉。。。生病的社会。。。
现在。。。出门都不放心了。。。
怕被人打抢。。。怕被人跟踪。。。
人心惶惶。。。终日不得安宁。。。
算了。。。就算投诉了也没有用。。。
社会的治安不见得会好一点。。。
只好希望朋友的妈妈和弟弟尽快好起来。。。

09.09.09

2009-01-13T22:02:00.003+08:00

以上的日期。。。是许多情侣共结连理的日子。。
但是对于我来说。。。
却有另一种见解。。。
基于政府新设定的条规。。。
后座的乘客必须扣上安全带。。。
而我的爱车。。。后座却没有安全带。。。
所以呢。。。
我必须去perodua的车厂安装。。。
而我过去要预约的时候。。。
预约的是九日九月零九年。。。09/09/09。。。
希望警察先生不要在那个日子前抓到我吧。。。哈！！
-.-'''

开学了。。。

2009-01-13T17:40:00.002+08:00

放了一段好悠长的假期。。。
现在。。。新的学期又展开了。。。
但是呢。。。
我好像生病了。。。
我患了一个很难治好的毛病。。。
锵锵锵锵锵！！
那就是懒惰病啦！！
不过能够让生活有重点那是好的。。。
总比混日子来的有意义啦。。。
至于我的“布拉达”们。。。
一个开始工作了。。。希望他工作顺利吧。。。
另一个则要补会他之前创下的祸。。。也希望她顺顺利利啦。。。
新的学期。。。真的要加油了。。。
回头看一看。。。自己也不年轻了。。。
不能够在蹉跎岁月了。。。
要不然。。。就只好眼睁睁的看着朋友一个个的买车买楼。。。
自己却买书买笔了。。。哈哈。。。
接下来有好多的assignments要赶了。。
有排忙咯。。。

愿望

2008-12-22T17:06:00.002+08:00

如果这世上真的有神明。。。
希望你保佑好心人。。。
让他们长命百岁。。。健健康康。。。
希望吉人自有天相。。。
伟斌合十。。。

母爱...

2008-10-23T10:17:00.002+08:00

记得我好像曾经写过关于母爱的post...
不过啊...
母爱总是永垂不朽...
下雨天...你的伴...和你在步行中...
两人共用一把雨伞...
互相礼让的希望另一半不要淋湿了身子...
怕对方会生病...
好体贴...
有一天...
我才明白...
我看见一个妈妈...和他的女儿在雨中...
要走路回家...
妈妈...
把女儿放在脚车的座位上...
妈妈...一手拿着雨伞...一首推着脚踏车...深怕自己的女儿会淋病...
自己呢？我看...他应该没考虑到吧...
女儿啊...
则在那摇着他的脚脚...唱着他的名瑶...
好美丽的一副画...
赞颂着妈妈的伟大...
儿女啊...要记得父母的伟大...

futsal...New MR. Fong & cockroach

2008-10-01T01:03:00.003+08:00

today...we went for futsal...at sport city with my dudes...
although our team kena wracked gao gao...but yet...
i would like to praise ya'll contribution here....
salute....-_-...
and also...today...was a big day for our old MR. Fong....kin you...
u know y?coz...there is some1 who can really take over his crown....
guess who....
yeah!!its him....darryl sien...
really sien bout him....
congratulation to you...darryl!!
the new MR. Fong of the year!!
he ffk us...and dun even picked up our calls....
like evaporated in this world....
haha....
and...another story...
i found out something very scary when i reached home...
i put my shoe in my shoe rack....
and u guess what i saw?
OMG!!!i saw pieces of cockroach in my shoe....
and then...i went to check out my stocking....
oh....SHIT!!!
i think i step on it...for the whole match!!
disgusting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
+_+ terrible la....

啊弥陀佛。。。

瓶颈。。。平静

2008-09-23T09:38:00.002+08:00

最近。。。在做事方面遇到了瓶颈。。。
诸事不顺。。。
不过啊。。。
要以平静的心去对待。。。
我相信。。。会有转机的。。。
加油加油加油！！！

halloween...

2008-09-17T23:44:00.003+08:00

i just went for a movie today 口水虫...haha...
title: Halloween
i was attracted by the poster of this movie...
y?
because...is looked like one of the cover page of my psychology text book...
if u dun believe...go and check it out....
and no doubt...the movie was emphasize on a psychopathy...
so students of this course....should check it out...haha....
it potraited that how influencial is a family to a child...
and i believe...in fact...it is true...haha... thus...appreciate ur family if ur family is complete and full of happiness...

脚痛...

2008-09-17T01:08:00.002+08:00

现在的我。。。
可以坐的。。。
不想站。。。
可以滚的。。。
不想走。。。
可以睡的。。。
不想醒。。。
可以懒的。。。
不想做。。。
但。。。甜的吃。。。
苦的也吃。。。
连大便也要吃。。。
所以我是不会酱轻易放弃的。。。
因为美好的将来在大便堆里等着我。。。
哈哈哈！！！

部落格...

2008-08-12T20:35:00.002+08:00

一个月没有来我的部落格写下我的心声了。。。
最近放假。。。像发了疯似的在追看港剧。。。
好过瘾。。。
好像好久没有那么悠闲了。。。
不过啊。。。
闲着在家的时候呢。。。
就会多一点时间看清楚自己的房间。。。
多一点时间看清楚自己的房间。。。
你就会发现房间。。。
真的是乱到一个不行。。。
哈哈。。。
看来。。。我还是要下定决心把我的房间收拾干净了。。。
至少是我的书桌啦。。。哈哈。。。

得到...拥有...

2008-06-30T01:20:00.000+08:00

得到与拥有。。。
阴与阳。。。
有与无。。。
凡事都没有两全其美。。。
往往当你拥有一些。。。
你就一定会失去一些。。。
珍惜拥有的。。。
祝福失去的。。。

久违了。。

2008-06-30T00:51:00.001+08:00

好久没有update我的部落格了...
最近好忙...
课业...工作...
不过...也过的蛮充实的...
谢谢大家的支持...与鼓励...
一起加油吧...　

打是疼。。。骂是爱。。。

2008-06-07T12:02:00.002+08:00

这是一个很传统的用词。。。
相信大家都有看过吧。。。。
不过。。。你觉得在现今的这个社会还有酱的道理吗？
妈妈说。。。
女人是要来疼而不是要来出气的。。。
想想吧。。。
动手打女人的男人。。。
真是有辱我们男人。。。
别把自己的错误合理化。。。
这是有够胡扯！！

StReSS....

2008-06-07T11:54:00.003+08:00

Stress...
i believe that this term is no longer a stranger to most of the Bpsych students in jan intake....
this semester....a short sem...but we need to take a subject named biopsychology....
psychology that related to biology....dun get me?!fine....coz i also duno why must we study all those thing...neuron....brain....cortex....blar...blar....
in additional to that....assignments....a lot of assignments....rushing to us in a same time....
such a heavy workload to all of us....
but fine...wat to do?this is life....stress that we need to deal with everytime...and i believe that there will be rainbow after the rain eventhough at night....all the best to every1!!!

AcTioN pOtENtiAL....hUrRay....

2008-05-26T22:02:00.003+08:00

first of all, i would like to thank michael about asked us to join the bpsych futsal tourney...
without him...i dun even notice about this competition...
secondly, i would like to thank all of the team members from action potential...(sound so funny~~)
michael, jefferey, benjamin, kevin, darryl and betsy....
thirdly, the "cheer leader" members...hau ran, ai li, sharon, mandy and ivy....
thankx a lots for ur support...really meant a lots to our team...hehe...thankx....
in this tourney, our team had reached final with full of hardwork...everyone did a great job to helped the team to proceed....
although our team lost in the final....but i believe that...what we got from this competition...was not only the result...but the process....i really enjoyed it a lot when playing and hanging out with u all...thankx....cheer!!!
well...time to go back to assignments and exams....sobsob....:-(

宝贝。。记住我爱你。。。

2008-05-19T11:21:00.003+08:00

今天早上。。带着美好的心情。。。
从被窝里钻了出来。。。
泡了一杯咖啡。。。
拿着桌上的报纸。。。
想多了解与关心世界上发生的事情。。。
让自己靠近这个世界多一点点。。。
翻开报纸。。看见这么一个标题。。。

“宝贝，记住我爱你！”

我的眼睛深深被这个标题吸引住了。。。
接着。。。就把这篇报道读了一遍。。。
在四川，一个妈妈。。。
为了保护一个只有四个月大的小婴儿。。。
被倒塌下来的屋子。。。压死了。。。
她生前的最后一个是双膝跪地。。。身体则向前。。。
形成一个像 “Orz" 的姿势。。。保护着她的女儿。。。
结果。。。当这个妈妈和小婴儿被救援队发现时。。。
可悲的是。。。妈妈已经没有呼吸了。。。
可喜的是。。。小婴儿毫发无伤，安静的在睡觉。。。
这位妈妈。。。在最后一口气之前。。。
在她的手机上留了言。。。
“亲爱的宝贝，如果你能活着，一定要记住我爱你”
妈妈打从事情的发生时。。。就已经没有想过要活命。。。
反而尽了一切的力气。。。用了所有的力气。。。
去爱着她的小婴儿。。。
看着看着。。。
眼泪从眼眶中。。。不知觉得留了下来。。。

想对所有的妈妈说。。。谢谢你们无私的爱。。。
从一开始到最后。。。

另一种爱。。。

2008-05-16T02:55:00.003+08:00

曾经天真的以为不管时间和空间的距离有多长多远，
感情一定会恒久不变，因为爱是没有理由的……
爱不能成为牵绊，所以要选择放手，
从容的让彼此走出彼此的世界。
凡事到极至，伤也会痛。
其实爱过就会懂，
彼此个性的太过坚强终究会是一起生活的阴影
昨日的幸福已成为一种痕迹。
两人能携手走完整个人生固然美好，
可陪上了一段也应心存感激了。
爱一个人不是要成为所爱的人的牵绊，
只要心中有爱，生活总是那么美好。
相遇是一种缘，相识，相恋更是一种缘，
缘起而聚，缘尽而散，放手才是真爱！
还有一种爱，叫离开
　　
希望你幸福，我爱的人,爱我的人……

珍惜就是幸福

2008-05-12T18:08:00.002+08:00

人的一生中。。。从满了许多的变数。。。
我们。。人。。从来都没有办法可以猜测这些变数。。。
我们可以做的。。。或许就是。。。
勇敢地接受。。。
坚强的面对。。。
对于爱情。。。我们还可以让时间满满的冲淡它所带来的冲击。。。
但。。。有些事情。。。我们就算是面对了。。。也无法能够把它忘记。。。
勇敢的接收及坚强的面对。。。
没错。。。说是容易。。。但做起来就是两码子的事了。。。
对于那些真的能够做到的。。。我置于万二分的敬意。。。
佩服他们的勇敢。。。佩服他们的坚决。。。
病。。。是很可怕的。。。尤其是那些。。。我们都害怕的病。。。
对于那些病人。。。这件事情对他们生活的冲击实在是。。。无法想象。。。
不仅如此。。。对于他们身边的人来说。。。更是措手不及。。。
家人。。。兄弟姐妹。。。朋友。。。以及所有认识的人。。。
都会被牵连。。。毕竟。。。我们的手中都有大家的存在的证明。。。
人。。。应该要珍惜身边的一切。。。
无论是红蓝黄黑。。。酸甜苦辣。。。直圈弯曲。。。
我们都应该珍惜。。。因为。。。它们是多么的美好的。。。
要知道。。。当你离开这世界时。。。我们可是什么也带不了。。。
能够带走的。。。就只有回忆。。。
祝大家天天幸福。。。天天开心。。。
　　懂得珍惜身旁的一切这是人生中最大的幸福。

耐性。。。

2008-05-12T00:15:00.003+08:00

耐性: [ nài xìng ]
1. patience
2. endurance
这两个解释。。。是从字典拿下来的。。。
最近发现。。。自己的耐性好像不再像以前的那样。。。那样有伸缩性。。。
最近发现。。。在等待交通灯时。。。开始会不耐烦。。。
最近发现。。。在等待已叫的食物时。。。开始会不耐烦。。。
最近发现。。。在等待自己的头脑开窍时。。。开始会不耐烦。。。
糟了。。。我的耐性是不是真已经慢慢的减少了。。。
我不再是一个有耐性的人了。。。
人的忍耐都市有限的。。。所以。。。不要挑战他人的耐性。。。
要不然。。。你说呢？？
哈哈。。。我也不懂~~~

你我他的汤。。。

2008-05-04T23:57:00.005+08:00

那天和朋友出去闲聊时。。。
聊到了。。“人生大事”。。。“人生的大道理”。。。
就突然间突发奇想。。。
竟然把人生比喻成一锅汤。。。
小孩在刚刚来到这世界上时。。。就好比一锅清清的水。。。
还没加任何的汤料。。。所以就只是清清的一锅水。。。
随着时间成长。。。
人生的经验就是我们的汤料。。。把原本一锅清清的汤。。。
变得有味道了。。。酸甜苦辣。。。五味交集。。。
每一天的我们。。。都会经历许多不同的事情。。。
而这些。。。也就是我们的汤料与酱料。。。
把我们变得越来越有火候。。。
把我们变成更好喝的一锅汤。。。
有的人是清汤。。。有的人是东炎汤。。。有的人是酸辣汤。。。
所以人。。。可是每一天都在变。。。
虽然如此。。。我们也确应该对我们遇到的人事物。。。
心存感谢。。。
因为没有他们。。。就没有今天的我们。。。

扛。。。

2008-05-02T23:13:00.001+08:00

可以让我扛你一辈子吗？

双面人。。。

2008-05-02T18:43:00.003+08:00

从很久以前。。。有人说我是两头蛇。。。双面人。。。
两头蛇与双面人。。。有着一样的意思。。。
说明着一个人。。。表里不一。。。说一套。。。做一套。。。
有时候。。在想。。。我真的是这样吗？
或许。。。是吧。。。
那是因为我是一个虚伪的人？
或是因为我的人太婆婆妈妈。。。
所以拿不定自己的立场。。。
是不是一定非要选定立场的吗？
算了。。。我认了。。。
反正到最后。。。我还是会伤害到别人。。。
那就什么都认了吧。。。

失恋。。。方程式。。。

2008-04-30T23:36:00.001+08:00

失恋。。。方程式。。。

逃避。。。逃避现实带来的创伤。。。

接受。。。接受现实带来的冲击。。。

面对。。。面对现实带来的残酷。。。

忘记。。。忘记现实带来的伤害。。。

失恋。。。四步曲。。。
虽然我不能说这方程式能全球通用。。。
但我觉得。。。至少能让我们减低失恋带来的伤害。。。

傻瓜....

2008-04-30T12:25:00.003+08:00

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

温岚－傻瓜

Tagged

2008-04-28T00:34:00.003+08:00

Instructions: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. Do you believe love at first sight?

sometimes...we might fallen into someone without our concious. thus, i will not say that i dun believe love in first sight...but i would say that feeling of love will grow stronger as time pass by.

2. Given the chance, what special ability/power would you like to have?

i wish that i have the ability to make people around me happy and safe...i dun wan to see them sad and get hurt...coz i will also feel sad and pain when they experienced it...

3. What do you think of your brother(s)/sister(s)?

i have a brother who is in 17 years old. he is cute, from my persepctive la...although not very good in study...but he is smart in other areas...hehe...but sometimes he is a bit low self-esteem...like his elder brother la...lol....

hem...about my younger sister...she is only 8 this year...she is the queen in dad's family...manja...naughty...but also...cute...hehe...all of us pampered her a lot...haha....that's y she is so manja....

although both of them are born in a different mother with me...but i feel glad that i can have them....wish them happy and save always...

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?

i wish that there wil be a place that without sadness...

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?

wish that people around safe ans sound...and happy always....
ya....i wish that i can have a dinner with my "family"...my dad..my mum...
this might be a very simple thing for some of u...but for me...yes...like impossible...
so pls do appreciate ur family....

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

sweet come after pain...i believe that...thus, dun give up although there are obstacles in front of u...

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?

myself.....my heart....

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?

save in the bank gua...haha...no idea leh...buy a lots of shirt??!!haha...sound so me...rite?!

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

people always said that...if thing faithed to be urs...it will sure be urs...(direct translation^^)

but sometimes...i think we need to use our own hand to grab what we need....if not...chances will run away....lol...

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.

ivy...she is cute....sweet...and also understanding...^^

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?

someone that i love....

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?

someone who betrayed me...haha...

13. What is your ambition?

to be a succeful person...haha....what is the operational defination of that?!

check it out later...haha....

14. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?

point it out to me...but try to make it into more gentle way la..haha...coz i am very fragile...haha....

15. What do you think is the most important in your life?

people that i love...and care....

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?

Hmm.. this depend alot on my financial status..(Choong, 2008)

17. What is the thing that you really want now?

i want to have a clearer picture of my own faith and future....haha...although it is impossible...

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?

haha...people who know me well should know this....

thankx for so many counseling sessions that you all did for me...

i really understand it well...but i just failed to practice it...haha...

19. Is there anything that you have done which you regret?

regret?!life of mine was full of regrets...coz last time...duno how to grab the chance...always think "what if" after things happened...what is the point?haha....so dun discuss more on this la...lol...

20. What do you think of love?
for me..love is a miracle thing...can save some1...can hurt some1...we take our whole life to learn...but yet...some of them still unable to find out the answer...some of them...think that they found it...but yet...i duno whether they found it correctly ornot...haha....in short...i also duno what am i writing...lol....

hem...hau ran, kin you and darryl are tagged by me!!

eMotIoN...lEss....

2008-04-28T00:17:00.003+08:00

long time didnt blog in english d....coz sometimes i think that if blog in english...i feel hard to describe my feelings and thoughts accurately...due to my poor english....haha....
seriously....i seems like emotionless recently...maybe i choosed to have this kind of feeling ba...dun wan to let myself to think so much....feel so much....make myself stuck all the sensory organ....
haha....but anyway...now is holidays....rest...play...gathering...enjoy...and finally....sleeping....
i miss u all that i usually meet in coll....take care...and waiting for next gathering...

十分。。爱

2008-04-15T02:25:00.003+08:00

当你爱一个人的時候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。
所有的期待和希望都只有七八分；剩下兩三分用来爱自己。
爱一个人！要了解，也要开解；
要道歉，也要道谢；要认错，也要改错；
要体贴，也要体谅；是接受，而不是忍受；
是宽容，而不是纵容；是支持，而不是支配；
是慰問，而不是質問；是傾诉，而不是控诉；
是难忘，而不是遺忘；是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
是为对方默默祈求，而不是向对方诸多要求；
可以浪漫，但不要浪費；
可以随時牽手，但不要随便分手。

计划赶不上变化....

2008-04-13T01:11:00.004+08:00

如果把人生比喻成火车...
那我想计划大概就是就是人生的轨道...
有时想想....计划是人生不可缺少的...
就好像火车不能没了轨道...
如果火车没了轨道就不能行驶了...
我们应该为我们的生活拟下一个计划...
好让我们在迷失了方向是可以让那个计划为我们导航...让我们找回自己的方向...
有一个男孩...常常以为...自己的生活已经有了一个计划..蓝图...
他的任务就像是火车...依着轨道行驶...就能到达目的地...
所以..他也没为他的生活多想...因为他觉得...只要有按照计划就好了...
有没有想过...火车也有会脱轨的时候...
这世界...时时刻刻都在变...
每个人也一样...只是我们或许没察觉...
我们都会随着社会的改变而改变自己...
当然...我们也有我们自己的原则...宗旨要保留...
只是...有时候...无论你的计划有多完美...
而世上往往有很多事情是不在你我的预算之内...能力范围之外...
导致我们不能依照我们原定的计划生活...
既然如此...那为什么我们还要计划我们的生活呢？
计划...是需要得...但是我们...应该要会懂得变通...
不要一味跟着原定的计划走...
那只会被它牵着我们的鼻子走...而迷失了自己...
在这个变化无常的社会...我们应该要多了解自己...
知道自己要的是什么...才不让短短的一生白过...
计划赶不上变化...
让自己更具伸缩性吧...那才可以迎向充满变数的未来...

AssiGnmeNts....Due!

2008-04-12T13:57:00.003+08:00

wow...at 10 of april in 2008, there were a gang of 5 ppl...consist of ppl...
hau ran, kevin, li ling, meisim and i...over night at mcdonal's at bandar sri damansara...
why??huh~~coz we rushed for our lab report...the final major assignment in this semester...
we reached there around 12am...ans started to work on our report....
we were so quiet and serious through out the process...haha...
although sometimes got chit chat a bit...coz we need to talk...if not will become halitosis...^^
and we left the place at around 6am...and some of us still not done yet with the report...
but...we need to go back to take a rest...then only can continue...
at last...all of us managed to complete it and submitted it d...hurray!!
having someone beside you when you working for something is so important...
they will make you feel more comfortable...and feel of accompanied...and work together to achieve something...

bAMboO.....NigHTii!!

2008-04-12T13:24:00.005+08:00

Friday night, a night that most of the youngster will hang out together with friends...
i was one of them...this friday...was the last assignment due date..
this Friday, Veen gave me a call and asked me out with her course mate...
bb..a 25 years old girl from china and rich gila...!!
she drove a BM..not BMX...but BMW....brand new 3 series...luxurious vehicle...huhu~~
so...she drove us there with her BMW....
our destination is baMboo~~at TTDI plaza...
i never been there before thus i dont even know that there is so happening at night (coz a lot of club)....
bb had a date with her friends...which is also very very rich...
i think he spend around RM900++ on the liquor only...
and the consequence is...bb and he was drunk...haha~~
around 3am....we were about to go home...coz something happened and bb wanted to leave...
when we collected her car...she said she was drunk and couldnt drive....
as a result..not her...not veen...but...me to drive the Brand New BMW~~
i was so shocked...i never expected that this would happen...and drive a BMW in a bit wink condition plus the car is not mine...can you imagine the pressure?!!
like suck the marrow out of me (Jeffrey, 2008)....haha...(IVDV gang will know this well enough!!)
when i get the car key...i dun even know how to put the key into the hole and start it...dun even know how to on the head light...
coz it was really different to normal car...
when i drove that time...the capacity of its engine...huh...i think without description...you and i also can imagine how strong it is...
yet...luckily...we arrived home safe and sound...
not like another car...bb' friend's car..new E200 merz compressor..
knocked his side mirror...
and went against traffice light and almost crashed with a lorry once..
somemore..cut two cars in a row..in a sharpe turning with only 2 lane...
merely crashed with the car coming oppisite direction...bhew~~~scaring...
altough it was tiring....
but such a extra ordinary experience for me....fu~~it...fu~~it...
can you imagine how much that i need to pay if something wrong during the journey i drive home...huhu...

eMo..daY....

2008-04-09T00:34:00.001+08:00

Today...was such an sentimental day for each of us...
never see each other in this MOOD before...and never expect that will see it in this critical period..
as finals are actually around the corner....
but yet...this happened...
due to some reasons...
we watched a korean mv...
its like pushing our "button"....haha...
some of us even showed a face that we never see before...
for me..myself...there was actually a story appeared in my mind....
a story between a boy and a girl...
they used to be a couple...
but one day....when she was on her way to the boy's house to gave him a surprise for his birthday...the girl meet an accident...injured badly...and was in coma...
yet...same to the boy...but just the boy suffered on mentally...
there was no words that can describe how pain was the boy felt...
he was lost...he duno what else that he can do for the girl...
he was sitting inside a chruch...prayed...prayed...and prayed...
suddenly...there was a buttefly appear in front of him...and asked him a question...
"if i can make the girl recover fully from her injuries...but...there is a price that you need to pay for...will you still want me to do so?"
the boy answered without any hesitation...
"yes...i will take it..."
the butterfly...."i will save the girl...but you need to become butterfly for 5 years..."
the boy still hold on his decision...
and finally...
he became a butterfly...
and the girl...
recovered from her injuries....
the boy was the first person that the girl was looking for when she awake...
but she could not found him...
but...
the boy was actually just beside her....as a butterfly...
after a long time...she was disappointed...
and start to felt that the boy left her because the boy did not want to pick up to responsibilities to take care of her...
at this time...there was a person always stay beside her whenever she felt down...
her doctor....the one who responsible for her treatment....
and as time pass by....the girl fallen to the doctor...
the boy...was always beside the girl and witnessed all the things...
but he never felt angry about what the girl did...because he knew that it was his fault..
unable to be with the girl when the girl was down...
after 5 years....in the same church...there was a couple who had their wedding there...
the girl and the doctor....
and in the same day...the date that the boy can transform back to his own....
"Its the time that for you to be yourself back.."from the buttefly..
"there was no reason for me to appear in her life at this moment...if i do...she will be in a very difficult situation...she will be sad...i dun wan to see her sad...and i wish that i can be a butterfly and stay at her side forever...and cherish her...."
END...

iNtrOdUctIOn....

2008-04-09T00:16:00.000+08:00

i used to blog...
but was in Mandarin and this is the very first time that i actually blog in English...
because of you...
a lot changes that i made to myself...
so that the distance that fall between us can be narrow down...
i really hope that there is 1 day that the wall will not block me from reaching your side....
i wish to share everything is my life with you...
through this...