失恋。。。方程式。。。

失恋。。。方程式。。。

逃避。。。逃避现实带来的创伤。。。

接受。。。接受现实带来的冲击。。。

面对。。。面对现实带来的残酷。。。

忘记。。。忘记现实带来的伤害。。。

失恋。。。四步曲。。。
虽然我不能说这方程式能全球通用。。。
但我觉得。。。至少能让我们减低失恋带来的伤害。。。

傻瓜....

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁 暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱 撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜 我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜 我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

温岚 － 傻瓜

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1. Do you believe love at first sight?

sometimes...we might fallen into someone without our concious. thus, i will not say that i dun believe love in first sight...but i would say that feeling of love will grow stronger as time pass by.

2. Given the chance, what special ability/power would you like to have?

i wish that i have the ability to make people around me happy and safe...i dun wan to see them sad and get hurt...coz i will also feel sad and pain when they experienced it...

3. What do you think of your brother(s)/sister(s)?

i have a brother who is in 17 years old. he is cute, from my persepctive la...although not very good in study...but he is smart in other areas...hehe...but sometimes he is a bit low self-esteem...like his elder brother la...lol....

hem...about my younger sister...she is only 8 this year...she is the queen in dad's family...manja...naughty...but also...cute...hehe...all of us pampered her a lot...haha....that's y she is so manja....

although both of them are born in a different mother with me...but i feel glad that i can have them....wish them happy and save always...

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?

i wish that there wil be a place that without sadness...

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?

wish that people around safe ans sound...and happy always....
ya....i wish that i can have a dinner with my "family"...my dad..my mum...
this might be a very simple thing for some of u...but for me...yes...like impossible...
so pls do appreciate ur family....

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

sweet come after pain...i believe that...thus, dun give up although there are obstacles in front of u...

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?

myself.....my heart....

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?

save in the bank gua...haha...no idea leh...buy a lots of shirt??!!haha...sound so me...rite?!

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

people always said that...if thing faithed to be urs...it will sure be urs...(direct translation^^)

but sometimes...i think we need to use our own hand to grab what we need....if not...chances will run away....lol...

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.

ivy...she is cute....sweet...and also understanding...^^

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?

someone that i love....

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?

someone who betrayed me...haha...

13. What is your ambition?

to be a succeful person...haha....what is the operational defination of that?!

check it out later...haha....

14. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?

point it out to me...but try to make it into more gentle way la..haha...coz i am very fragile...haha....

15. What do you think is the most important in your life?

people that i love...and care....

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?

Hmm.. this depend alot on my financial status..(Choong, 2008)

17. What is the thing that you really want now?

i want to have a clearer picture of my own faith and future....haha...although it is impossible...

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?

haha...people who know me well should know this....

thankx for so many counseling sessions that you all did for me...

i really understand it well...but i just failed to practice it...haha...

19. Is there anything that you have done which you regret?

regret?!life of mine was full of regrets...coz last time...duno how to grab the chance...always think "what if" after things happened...what is the point?haha....so dun discuss more on this la...lol...

20. What do you think of love?
for me..love is a miracle thing...can save some1...can hurt some1...we take our whole life to learn...but yet...some of them still unable to find out the answer...some of them...think that they found it...but yet...i duno whether they found it correctly ornot...haha....in short...i also duno what am i writing...lol....

hem...hau ran, kin you and darryl are tagged by me!!

eMotIoN...lEss....

long time didnt blog in english d....coz sometimes i think that if blog in english...i feel hard to describe my feelings and thoughts accurately...due to my poor english....haha....
seriously....i seems like emotionless recently...maybe i choosed to have this kind of feeling ba...dun wan to let myself to think so much....feel so much....make myself stuck all the sensory organ....
haha....but anyway...now is holidays....rest...play...gathering...enjoy...and finally....sleeping....
i miss u all that i usually meet in coll....take care...and waiting for next gathering...

十分。。爱

当你爱一个人的時候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。
所有的期待和希望都只有七八分；剩下兩三分用来爱自己。
爱一个人！要了解，也要开解；
要道歉，也要道谢；要认错，也要改错；
要体贴，也要体谅；是接受，而不是忍受；
是宽容，而不是纵容；是支持，而不是支配；
是慰問，而不是質問；是傾诉，而不是控诉；
是难忘，而不是遺忘；是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
是为对方默默祈求，而不是向对方诸多要求；
可以浪漫，但不要浪費；
可以随時牽手，但不要随便分手。

计划赶不上变化....

如果把人生比喻成火车...
那我想计划大概就是就是人生的轨道...
有时想想....计划是人生不可缺少的...
就好像火车不能没了轨道...
如果火车没了轨道就不能行驶了...
我们应该为我们的生活拟下一个计划...
好让我们在迷失了方向是可以让那个计划为我们导航...让我们找回自己的方向...
有一个男孩...常常以为...自己的生活已经有了一个计划..蓝图...
他的任务就像是火车...依着轨道行驶...就能到达目的地...
所以..他也没为他的生活多想...因为他觉得...只要有按照计划就好了...
有没有想过...火车也有会脱轨的时候...
这世界...时时刻刻都在变...
每个人也一样...只是我们或许没察觉...
我们都会随着社会的改变而改变自己...
当然...我们也有我们自己的原则...宗旨要保留...
只是...有时候...无论你的计划有多完美...
而世上往往有很多事情是不在你我的预算之内...能力范围之外...
导致我们不能依照我们原定的计划生活...
既然如此...那为什么我们还要计划我们的生活呢？
计划...是需要得...但是我们...应该要会懂得变通...
不要一味跟着原定的计划走...
那只会被它牵着我们的鼻子走...而迷失了自己...
在这个变化无常的社会...我们应该要多了解自己...
知道自己要的是什么...才不让短短的一生白过...
计划赶不上变化...
让自己更具伸缩性吧...那才可以迎向充满变数的未来...

AssiGnmeNts....Due!

wow...at 10 of april in 2008, there were a gang of 5 ppl...consist of ppl...
hau ran, kevin, li ling, meisim and i...over night at mcdonal's at bandar sri damansara...
why??huh~~coz we rushed for our lab report...the final major assignment in this semester...
we reached there around 12am...ans started to work on our report....
we were so quiet and serious through out the process...haha...
although sometimes got chit chat a bit...coz we need to talk...if not will become halitosis...^^
and we left the place at around 6am...and some of us still not done yet with the report...
but...we need to go back to take a rest...then only can continue...
at last...all of us managed to complete it and submitted it d...hurray!!
having someone beside you when you working for something is so important...
they will make you feel more comfortable...and feel of accompanied...and work together to achieve something...

bAMboO.....NigHTii!!

Friday night, a night that most of the youngster will hang out together with friends...
i was one of them...this friday...was the last assignment due date..
this Friday, Veen gave me a call and asked me out with her course mate...
bb..a 25 years old girl from china and rich gila...!!
she drove a BM..not BMX...but BMW....brand new 3 series...luxurious vehicle...huhu~~
so...she drove us there with her BMW....
our destination is baMboo~~at TTDI plaza...
i never been there before thus i dont even know that there is so happening at night (coz a lot of club)....
bb had a date with her friends...which is also very very rich...
i think he spend around RM900++ on the liquor only...
and the consequence is...bb and he was drunk...haha~~
around 3am....we were about to go home...coz something happened and bb wanted to leave...
when we collected her car...she said she was drunk and couldnt drive....
as a result..not her...not veen...but...me to drive the Brand New BMW~~
i was so shocked...i never expected that this would happen...and drive a BMW in a bit wink condition plus the car is not mine...can you imagine the pressure?!!
like suck the marrow out of me (Jeffrey, 2008)....haha...(IVDV gang will know this well enough!!)
when i get the car key...i dun even know how to put the key into the hole and start it...dun even know how to on the head light...
coz it was really different to normal car...
when i drove that time...the capacity of its engine...huh...i think without description...you and i also can imagine how strong it is...
yet...luckily...we arrived home safe and sound...
not like another car...bb' friend's car..new E200 merz compressor..
knocked his side mirror...
and went against traffice light and almost crashed with a lorry once..
somemore..cut two cars in a row..in a sharpe turning with only 2 lane...
merely crashed with the car coming oppisite direction...bhew~~~scaring...
altough it was tiring....
but such a extra ordinary experience for me....fu~~it...fu~~it...
can you imagine how much that i need to pay if something wrong during the journey i drive home...huhu...

eMo..daY....

Today...was such an sentimental day for each of us...
never see each other in this MOOD before...and never expect that will see it in this critical period..
as finals are actually around the corner....
but yet...this happened...
due to some reasons...
we watched a korean mv...
its like pushing our "button"....haha...
some of us even showed a face that we never see before...
for me..myself...there was actually a story appeared in my mind....
a story between a boy and a girl...
they used to be a couple...
but one day....when she was on her way to the boy's house to gave him a surprise for his birthday...the girl meet an accident...injured badly...and was in coma...
yet...same to the boy...but just the boy suffered on mentally...
there was no words that can describe how pain was the boy felt...
he was lost...he duno what else that he can do for the girl...
he was sitting inside a chruch...prayed...prayed...and prayed...
suddenly...there was a buttefly appear in front of him...and asked him a question...
"if i can make the girl recover fully from her injuries...but...there is a price that you need to pay for...will you still want me to do so?"
the boy answered without any hesitation...
"yes...i will take it..."
the butterfly...."i will save the girl...but you need to become butterfly for 5 years..."
the boy still hold on his decision...
and finally...
he became a butterfly...
and the girl...
recovered from her injuries....
the boy was the first person that the girl was looking for when she awake...
but she could not found him...
but...
the boy was actually just beside her....as a butterfly...
after a long time...she was disappointed...
and start to felt that the boy left her because the boy did not want to pick up to responsibilities to take care of her...
at this time...there was a person always stay beside her whenever she felt down...
her doctor....the one who responsible for her treatment....
and as time pass by....the girl fallen to the doctor...
the boy...was always beside the girl and witnessed all the things...
but he never felt angry about what the girl did...because he knew that it was his fault..
unable to be with the girl when the girl was down...
after 5 years....in the same church...there was a couple who had their wedding there...
the girl and the doctor....
and in the same day...the date that the boy can transform back to his own....
"Its the time that for you to be yourself back.."from the buttefly..
"there was no reason for me to appear in her life at this moment...if i do...she will be in a very difficult situation...she will be sad...i dun wan to see her sad...and i wish that i can be a butterfly and stay at her side forever...and cherish her...."
END...

iNtrOdUctIOn....

i used to blog...
but was in Mandarin and this is the very first time that i actually blog in English...
because of you...
a lot changes that i made to myself...
so that the distance that fall between us can be narrow down...
i really hope that there is 1 day that the wall will not block me from reaching your side....
i wish to share everything is my life with you...
through this...