旧衣服...

不明白为什么...
当你把我买了回家后...
以为一切没问题了...
很称身...
到头来却还是一样...
我还是会有让你觉得不称身的时候...
但是...
我不是你可以呼之则来...
挥之则去的...
你觉得想穿时就把我穿上身...
你觉得不要时就把我丢进衣橱里...

我不是人...不会有想法...感觉...
但如果我是人呢？
那你不是太残忍了吗？

哈哈...
以上是我替旧衣服们发出的心声...
:P

back to normal....

things happened had happened...
you cant do a thing to change the fact...
we need to
face with the fact..
deal with the problems...
confront ourselves with our fault...
look for solutions for the problems...
sometimes, we might..
lost the courage to face with it..
lack of ability to deal with the problems..
low level of self awareness to acknowledge our fault..
no idea for any solutions...
but some how or rather..we need to stand up..
maybe the atmosphere is akward..
our efforts isnt doing any good..
the feeling isnt the same as the good old time..
but yeah..this is life..
Mr. thesis...when can you get out from my life....
give me back my normal life...

日落..

一样的街道。。。
一样的时间。。。
一样的日落。。。
却有着。。。
截然不同的心情。。。

self....

好久没好好的欣赏早上的风景了。。。
早上的空气好像特别好。。。
特别的清新。。。
或许刚起床吧。。。不像中午。。。
太阳公公含蓄的躲在云里。。。
卖雪糕的uncle。。。
摇着他的铃啷。。。
回忆跳针。。。
回到童年的我。。。
早上上课时。。。
老师总会说。。。“早起的鸟儿有虫吃”
或许是考试吧。。。
让我好想停下来。。。
好好的欣赏身边的事与物。。。
反省自己。。。
觉得自己好像很粘。。。
觉得自己没有方向。。。
觉得自己没有前途。。。
ideal self和actual self差得太远了。。。
要调整。。。要接受。。。要放开。。。
self actualization。。。要达到。。。
我想我不是一个introvert的人吧。。。
我不会欣赏寂寞。。。甚至有时候会害怕。。。
但我要学会。。。学会去品尝它。。。
因为寂寞是我们自我了解的好时机。。。
好喜欢早上哦。。。^^

走吧！别再害人了！

离开吧。。。别再留下来害人害己了。。。
你从来不会带给别人些什么。。。
别人也不会对你有什么期待。。。
你只会带给别人麻烦和问题。。。
凡事都只会为自己着想。。。
你的世界只有你。。。其他的人都只是你的陪衬品。。。
别人的问题不是问题。。。
只有你的问题才是问题。。。
你说的都是道理。。。
其他人说的是歪理。。。
够了。。。不要再对你慈祥了。。。
你走吧。。。我不会对你有所怀念的。。。

DePuy

An J & J company...
recently, i worked in an autonomy event...with mic...
about the detail, you can visit mic's blog to read about that..
here by, show u all some amazing pic...
you know...for those people, our bone just like a piece of wood...
they cut it...they shave it...they wipe it...they drill it...and sometime, they HAMMER it!!
i feel so pain when i witness the live surgery...

灰色地带...

相信每个人都会有面对这个问题的时候吧。。。
做或不做。。。
说或不说。。。
每个人都有他们自己的一把尺。。。
自己的标准。。。
每个人都有他们的自由。。。
我们是不是要尊重呢？
还是我们应该要以大局为重呢？
做了把自己会后悔。。。
不作把自己会忏悔。。。
那个灰色地带。。。
不明显但又存在。。。
好自为之。。。

bad luck...

sometimes people said...bad thing wont happen in only one...
i think this might some some true in it la..haha...
the day before yesterday...which is friday...
i send veen for shooting in KL....
then after i dropped her....i know that i need to look for petrol station to fill up my tank..
as it was going to empty d...
but somehow...i was stuck in the jam...and i scared that my petrol will empty even faster if i keep jam here...thus...i saw a junction and i turned in to it...coz i think it should be easier to look for petrol station in smaller housing area...
it was a malay kampung....i keep going deeper and deeper...finally...after like 5 Km i saw a petrol station...
P.S. huh...luckily i found a petrol station here...then i can slowly find my way out of this malay kampung...
once i parked my car beside the bump...i try to look for my wallet.....
and i realized...it was with veen........WTF...............
which means....i got no money to fill up the petrol!!!
i were so panic at that moment...
luckily i remembered that i passed by a LRT station just now...
so i call...my dude....alex teng...and tell him that my condition and my location...
fortunately...he was able to come and help me...
thankx to him....
then...i thought my bad luck will be over la...
mana tahu...
yesterday...when i wanted to drive my car that time...
i saw a layer of water on the back wind screen...
i were thinking...how come got water on my window one?as no raining also...
then i walked to my car and open the door...
"boom!!"...my back windscreen pecah!!!
OMG....><...really speechless....

fate...

she was one of the women i love in this world...
i don't understand...why must be her to face with all this?
don't she deserve a better life?
she experienced a failure in her marriage 15 years ago...
because of her partner had an affair behind her...
after that, she had another relationship with a men...
but this time...she was the third party...and the man who basically is not a good man....
this relationship ended after some times due to several reasons...
and now...she is in a relationship with another man...
this time...the man treat her nice...and gentle...
and she is so happy to be with this man...
but some how...he is married and with 1 child...and always quarrel with his wife...
i don't even know how to explain why all these occur...
i think...there might be some kind of fate that she could not avoid...
but why her....
i understand that being a 3rd party in a relationship will not feel good and comfortable...
and some times even feel pressure and guilty...
but she did not do anything wrong...
at least she did not seduce and provoke a start of the relationship...
it was the man who confessed to her...
and she just wanted to grab something in her life so that she can has something everyone have...
love...
no matter what...i will still stand behind this woman...
and i will protect her from getting hurt with my every energy...
bless her...

new sem started!!!

feel stressed when the 1st week of the new sem...
thesis is coming...haven't prepare for anything...
haven't complete my second year subjects....
group with some anonymous is group project...quite scare lo...
this semester is a short semester...
thus, the mid term will be in the corner soon...
everything come with a shoot...stress gila...
+ the weather is so d*rm hot....
but ofcoz..there are good things...
1.Man utd need 1 more point to retain EPL.
2.i changed a new car.
3.anything good that i forgot to mentioned here...
hehe...anyway...wish myself a good luck to this new sem...

压力。。。

对不起。。。
让你承受了这么大的压力。。。
从来没有想过。。。
我们的相处方式会带给你这么大的压力。。。
我没有心让你失去你向往的自由。。。
但我却一时之间改不了我的毛病。。。
对不起。。。
你这样对我说。。。
我的心好痛。。。
一的人的房间。。。好冷。。。
泪洒在那里。。。
心也碎在那里。。。
我会反省的。。。

finally...

finally finished my exams...
finally finished mo work...
finally going to have a trip with friends to fraser hill...
finally my pocket out of money...
finally...
holidays are goin to end soon...
haih...
better enjoy the holidays gao gao...
if not next semester...thesis is about to start...
but now...i just want to enjoy the trip to fraser!!hehe...^^

curse you....

i feel bad when every1 had finished their exams but i don't.
i feel jealous for those people finished their exams and can go for movie before i finish my exam...
we shall wait and see...
mountain and water will meet one day...
hehe...tmr is my last paper...
i am going to be free on tmr after 2pm...but i will empathize on those who have not finish their exams la...haha...
all the best for everyone!!
^^...
wish that holidays can come as soon as possible...
and looking forward for fraser hill's trip...
hope that everyone will enjoy in the trip...hurray!!
gung ho gung ho...need to go back to study d...hoho!!

复杂。。。

最近发生了一些事情。。。
让我的心情很复杂。。。
很不稳定。。。
只要有一点事情发生。。。
我就会很害怕。。。很没有安全感。。。
但我的以为不是事实。。。我就会有一股莫名的担心。。。
担心不知道你在那里了。。。
看见一些事情。。。不知道到底怎么了。。。
我知道是那几个字是没问题的。。。
但我却总是不能够把那个不顺畅从我的心里拿出来。。。
当这个加上那个的时候。。。
心理的隔膜就越来越明显。。。
明天要期末考。。。
还是专心读书吧。。。
要不就两头不到岸了。。。
祝就来考试的朋友们。。。考试顺利。。

安好就好。。。

好久没有来我的部落格坐坐了...
最近的生活好忙碌哦...之前是期中考试...现在是作业了。。。
好多的作业要交了...而我却好好像没有心情要做功课呢。。。
最近的生活...风平浪静...舒舒服服...
也不知道要写什么好。。。
没关系啦。。。
就这样啦。。。
希望大家安好就好。。。

怪怪的心情。。。

明早八点考试。。。
现在的我。。。好像没有心情要读书了。。。
糟糕了。。。
听着虫鸣声。。。他们好逍遥。。。不用考试。。。
我呢？到底在干嘛。。。竟然还在这写部落格。。。
哈。。。
表弟的女友出国了。。。他们在一起一个星期了。。。
然后她就出国读书去了。。。
表弟好难过。。。
开始了一个星期。。。试想感情基础应该不是很强。。。应该不会很难过才对啊。。。
而且我老表示很开朗的人。。。
不过啊。。。他真的伤心了。。。
女的一走就可能两年。。。
说长不长。。。但也不短。。。
真不懂他们应该开始还是不应该开始。。。
有些事情。。。发生了。。。太快了。。。你来不及察觉。。。
发生了。。。甚至你一辈子也可能不会懂。。。
一个决定。。。可以影响一辈子。。。
加油吧。。。
好了。。。疯够了。。。
要回去读书了。。。哈哈。。。

granny birthday!!

yesterday was my granny birthday...
we had a dinner session and celebrate for her...
she was so happy...smile untill 见牙不见眼...
wish popo healty and happy always la....hehe^^

bIrthday BoY...huHu...

thankx for my beloved friends...
thankx for the suprise....hehe...i love u all so much...
veen and u all gave me a really big suprise....thankx so much...
hau ran...walk from setapak to 1u....
jeff...help to organized it....
ivy...little girl....
ai li....sailing expert...
boon woei...a good pro singer...(really amazed...)
ben...sentimental singer as well...haha....
micheal...sick also come...(touched...feel like wanna cry)
sharon...always sleepy girl...hehe...
kevin...purposely drove from seremban to 1u then go back to seremban!!...
and the most special one...my dear..veen...muaxk!!
thankx so much for all of u....

病态...

我们的社会生病了。。。
今天。。。我听见我朋友的妈妈和弟弟遇劫了。。。
还是在自家的门口。。。
那班匪真得很猖狂。。。
把母子俩人都伤得很严重的。。。
不明白。。。
抢就抢嘛。。。干嘛伤人呢？
你要过活难道人家的命就不是命吗？
有必要把人家弄得那样吗？
我们都明白。。。
通货膨胀的痛苦。。。没有钱的烦恼。。。
但你的命贵。。。难道人家的明就贱吗。。。
唉。。。生病的社会。。。
现在。。。出门都不放心了。。。
怕被人打抢。。。怕被人跟踪。。。
人心惶惶。。。终日不得安宁。。。
算了。。。就算投诉了也没有用。。。
社会的治安不见得会好一点。。。
只好希望朋友的妈妈和弟弟尽快好起来。。。

09.09.09

以上的日期。。。是许多情侣共结连理的日子。。
但是对于我来说。。。
却有另一种见解。。。
基于政府新设定的条规。。。
后座的乘客必须扣上安全带。。。
而我的爱车。。。后座却没有安全带。。。
所以呢。。。
我必须去perodua的车厂安装。。。
而我过去要预约的时候。。。
预约的是九日九月零九年。。。09/09/09。。。
希望警察先生不要在那个日子前抓到我吧。。。哈！！
-.-'''

开学了。。。

放了一段好悠长的假期。。。
现在。。。新的学期又展开了。。。
但是呢。。。
我好像生病了。。。
我患了一个很难治好的毛病。。。
锵锵锵锵锵！！
那就是懒惰病啦！！
不过能够让生活有重点那是好的。。。
总比混日子来的有意义啦。。。
至于我的“布拉达”们。。。
一个开始工作了。。。希望他工作顺利吧。。。
另一个则要补会他之前创下的祸。。。也希望她顺顺利利啦。。。
新的学期。。。真的要加油了。。。
回头看一看。。。自己也不年轻了。。。
不能够在蹉跎岁月了。。。
要不然。。。就只好眼睁睁的看着朋友一个个的买车买楼。。。
自己却买书买笔了。。。哈哈。。。
接下来有好多的assignments要赶了。。
有排忙咯。。。